New York is desire.

And it hurts. It's all beauty and brazen savoir-faire; two young men kissing, or laughing, or talking without stammering; neither one looking in my direction.

Oh, I exaggerate. But it really has been a joyous horror to be back in the city. Once I was a denizen; now I'm a mere tourist, yet I can almost recognise each face in the street - the twisty-haired film students, the gangstas in sports coats, the mothers and nannies and daddies pushing strollers holding babies of another race. I step onto campus, and the kids don't know me; there's no-one in the middle of Low Plaza who waves to me until I wave back. It's like being transported to a parallel universe where you never happened.

My old lovers say it's good to see me and then they have no time to see me.

I go away and New York keeps on running. There is no Yish-shaped hole left when I disappeared. I missed New York but New York did not miss me. Not much, leastways.

I exaggerate. I spent some good times with some lovers and would-be-lovers. We observed 4-20 and ate Thai food and did organic shopping and in some cases fucked. We slept together and apart and in the same bed but in different universes. Victor demonstrated his mastery of the sai (spinning Japanese daggers) and told me how mad he remains at his parents for making him study martial arts. Johnny related how his family's O-negative blood-type on a shoe helped to convict his sister's murderer, and that he may or may not have slept with Jake Gyllenhall. Chuck bought me sticky rice flavoured with crushed cherry blossoms and wrapped in salty lotus leaves. Adam housed me for four days. Ryder stood me up.

The problem is, I realise that in the heat of the moment I still am the desperate, needy yet uncommitted overgrown adolescent that I was ten years ago. I mope in the 4 am subways and send people text messages composed largely of primal screams. Of course, I'm collected and mature when I'm sitting in front of the monitor, updating my blog, but when I leave the computer room despair can still hit me out of left field.

Jason pointed out to me three years ago that I had never had a lover who returned my love. The statement remains true today.

New York is clubs in Greenwich Village and orgies in Brooklyn and happiness ever after at a City Hall civil disobedience action and a Chelsea loft. It's the expanse of the piers and the power of the museums and the glow of the distant lamps in the darkness of the subway.

Unattainable. Which is why everyone's so amazed that I'm back with two published books and a sold-out play within two years of graduation. I suppose I knew it was a rather prodigious accomplishment in Singapore, but I was pretty surprised that even here my friends and profs can't quite believe it; it's the kind of product you're supposed to yield seven years after commencement and an MFA and a back-room job in a publishing company.

Of course, in America it's an uphill struggle to find a publisher who'll view your work as commercial enough for the press or a theatre company that's game enough to ride with a novice. In Singapore we're pretty desperate for new writers, and we've got passionate folks like Enoch and Keng Sen and Loretta and Ekachai who're willing to work from the ground up. Such blessings.

Much better to be home, where you're recognised and relevant and you're more than a drop in the ocean. Why live where everyone mispronounces your name and dumps you in a huge three hundred year-old melting pot controlled by morally bankrupt politicians who betray their ideology with every breath that escapes their recta?

The city of desire beats you up, like the inside of an egg or a sheet of copper.

It changes you. You burn. You suffer. You grow.

P.S. I've given away or sold all the books I brought, which is something. Photos forthcoming.

Short and Sweet

My short ten-minute play "Frostbite" is going up this Wednesday as part of Short and Sweet Singapore, a festival of 10-minute plays. Andrew Lua's directing - he was one of the actors for the staged reading of "The Final Temptation of Stamford Raffles".

Week 2
25 April to 29 April 2007, 8pm
Studio Theatre, Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts
$25
Tickets here.

Nyuuyooku e iku!

Do not attempt to call my handphone from the night of April 15 to the afternoon of April 30th.

I shall be in New York City. Promoting my poetry book, last boy, definitely among my Columbia friends but also hopefully at open mikes at the Nuyorican and places like that.

Damn, look at me in that photo. So young and crazy (yes I know I'm still young and crazy, but trust me, back then I was so young and so crazy that I was principally a schizophrenic zygote). These are photos from my pal Edward Rueda, now studying journalism. He was a co-founder of the Klaritin improv group, and I was the founding member who kept on slipping up 'cos I didn't know the American cultural references.

Ah, but I wish I had that kind of therapy now. Improv kicks ass, y'all. You walk into the room and you have no idea who you're gonna be five minutes from now.

That, my friends, is the spirit of youth.

Much love, and send me e-mails.

我的朋友 My Friends Kawanku

A multilingual rap from a Muar Chinese-Malaysian. I want a translation! Watch out for the middle when he starts to scold Singapore. :)

If you've ever worked in Early Childhood Education, this is bizarrely familiar

Something Weird Going On In That Montessori School, Neighbor Reports

Vostra Mano Tamade

I resolved that, since I'm applying for the NAC Venice Biennale internship (hey, who wouldn't want to go to a foreign city to talk about Singapore art and be away from my folks), I'd prove my intent by writing a review of a Tang Dawu exhibit in Italian.

"Vostra Mano Madre (Your Mother Hand)" è la esplorazione ultima di Tang Dawu del rapporto fra l'uomo e la natura. La centrale al suo performance è il tronco dell'albero di banana, qui usato entrambi come costume ed armatura sculptural. Legato ai gambi della banana e ad una struttura della base del ferro, il artista se torsi come dormentore disturbato, abusato da un assistente mentre il suo pubblico osserva sopra, messo sui banchi taglienti del metallo. La scelta di gambo della banana come motivo è significativa, come l'albero di banana era, fino a che una generazione fa, trovato comunemente nelle giungle e nei giardini de Cingapura, deponenti le uova i racconti non abbondino degli alcoolici femminili che abitano gli alberi di banana, fascini medicinali pieghi composti di corteccia della banana, leggende di un regno antico dell'isola conservato dai pesci spada viziosi da un barricade dei tronchi della banana. A Cingapura postindustriale, tuttavia, i cittadini hanno raggiunto un punto dell'alienazione dei prodotti che i minmizza la frutta della banana in un commestibile banale del supermercato, gli alberi di banana si transformano in manufatti sconosciuto di storia, relegato alla selva. Tang sta riprendendo il tronco della banana come un'icona di mistero tropicale, che spingali, si è coricata in nostre strutture metalliche, nei sogni perturbato di tristezza della civilizzazione.

Aiyah, actually I babelfished it and then corrected what I could using an English-Italian dictionary. Sure got loads of errors. The original reads here:

"Your Mother Hand" is Tang Dawu's latest exploration of the relationship between man and nature. Central to his performance/installation is the banana tree trunk, here used both as costume and sculptural armature. Strapped to banana stems and an iron bed frame, the artist writhes as if in fitful sleep, abused by an assistant while his audience looks on, seated on sharp metal bleachers. Tang's choice of the banana stem as motif is significant, as the banana tree was, until a generation ago, commonly found in Singapore's jungles and gardens, spawning tales abound of female spirits who inhabit banana trees, folk medicinal charms composed of banana bark, legends of an ancient island kingdom saved from vicious swordfish by a barricade of banana trunks. In post-industrial Singapore, however, citizens have reached a point of commodity alienation that trivialises the banana fruit into a banal supermarket comestible, the banana trees become unfamiliar relics of history, relegated to the wilderness. Tang is reclaiming the banana trunk as an icon of tropical mystique, thrusting us, couched in our metallic edifices, into fitful dreams of civilisation's discontent.

The remaining installation is still viewable by appointment at Your Mother Gallery, but it's not much to look at. Curator Jeremy Hiah is fun to talk to, though.

a wonderful weekend, singapore

an interview with Bertrand Peret and Sandrine Llouquet of Wonderful District, by Ng Yi-Sheng. For details of the event, at 72-13 home of Theatreworks today and tomorrow until 3am, click here.

Let's dance > Bertrand, Sandrine, why did you decide to structure Wonderful Weekend as a party? We like to mix art and life in our project; or art and party. Bertrand is more in the life part and I'm more in the «boring» art part :) One of the most exciting and creative fields of this last decade is situated around electronic music and its contexts >>> thinking a space and how people will move into it You've been boyfriend/girlfriend since 1998, and began the Wonderful project in France in 2000 It was the natural continuation of our work. In my art work I question the locations of exhibition, the context, the public I started in 1996 in my apartment in Bordeaux. Every month for 2 years I was inviting one "project" (artist or group) to invest my space 72 hours non-stop... By existing, artworks demonstrate that everyone can choose to get his own point of view, even if it seems «abnormal» I like to use Hakim Bey's famous idea of the Temporary Autonomous Zone, utopian insofar as it believes in the intensification of everyday life, or, as surrealists would have put it, «a penetration of life by the marvellous».

Why did you decide to move to Vietnam in 2005? To give a new impetus to our activities. My parents are Vietnamese and I came for one year as a student at the Ho Chi Minh City Fine Arts University. I felt a enormous dynamism, an energy, a desire to progress that doesn't exist anymore in France yes!!! I think the difference is that in France, people are looking at the past that's it!!! and here they are looking at present, looking at the future... Here in VN, the traffic, how people are driving their motorbikes helped me to understand their way of working, thinking, moving forward; they never use their rear-view!!! So you formed Wonderful District, to stimulate contemporary art in Vietnam. But you've had setbacks: Rendezvous, the first incarnation of Wonderful, was cancelled for sponsorship reasons we have to ask for licences for every kind of art event. It is also very difficult to convince a sponsor to pay for something that has no precedent (that was the last answer of our sponsor).

You'll be showing French and Belgian as well as Vietnamese artists The contemporary art community we know here is very multicultural. The group we formed (Mogas Station) is representative Friendship is so important in any situation >>>> (8 artists including Vietnamese, German, French, Viet-French, Viet-American, Viet-Japanese) I believe in small groups, tribes, crew...>>> We want to bring new things to see and hear in Asia, we start with what we know... This is the exchange zone I do not believe in any nationalism; in our digital civilization it has less and less meaning...

Wonderful is an experiment of situation, of moments, of meetings We believe that there are a lot of people who doesn't care about contemporary art only because they have never seen contemporary art mixing architecture, design, music, Contemporary creation mixes competences ephemeral contexts the border between these forms is less and less clear graphism, communication , video, life, light, food...

Your life's work We realise that doing small things can have a big impact. Curating is necessary to enlarge choices, to multiply points of view and their representations. We still believe that art can change the world. We believe in a wonderful one...

Nietzsche + Family Circus = Why I Am So Wholesome?

For more DIY combinations of Family Circus illustrations and quotes from philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche, click here.

Five Foot Broadway Unplugged

Due to our heavy advertising, everyone already knows that my play 251 is being staged this week. What you probably don't know is that excerpts of my musical Georgette, based on the life of pioneer Singapore painter Georgette Chen, will be presented for free at the concourse this Wednesday and Thursday evening. See below:

This week, from Monday to Thursday, Musical Theatre Singapore will be showcasing the products of its new musical incubation programme. We'll be performing half-hour excerpts of the musicals at the Esplanade concourse, open to all, for free, naturally. :) Come by and clap a bit. Here's a schedule:

MONDAY 2 APRIL
7:30: Alex Yang's "Believe/Crash and Burn" Pt 1
8:30: Alex Yang's "Believe/Crash and Burn" Pt 2

TUESDAY 3 APRIL
7:30: Marcelly Suhaili's "O Crystal Ball"
8:30: Alex Yang's "Believe/Crash and Burn"

WEDNESDAY 4 APRIL
7:30: Jack Tan's "Tuesdays with Joe"
8:30 Ng Yi-Sheng's "Georgette"

THURSDAY 5 APRIL
7:30: Joshua Greene's "Esther"
8:30: Ng Yi-Sheng's "Georgette"

SYNOPSIS OF SHOWS

ESTHER
Writer/Composer: Joshua Greene
A young queen's decision to risk everything foils the murderous plot of an arrogant chief minister against her people. Based on the Biblical story.

O CRYSTAL BALL!
Writer : Marcelly Suhali Composer: Clement Yang
A light hearted love story that involves a young girl next door, a charming rich boy and eccentric fortune teller. It reminds everyone about the power of true love, how it can transcend all obstacles and overcome destinies. It is set in modern day London, England.

TUESDAYS WITH JOE
Writer/Composer: Jack Tan
A musical about a love story revolving around a popular radio DJ, and a girl living in the same apartment block who finds solace in listening to Joe's radio program. As their paths cross, they do not realize who each other really is, but instead only see the other's stubborn outward behavior.

GEORGETTE
Writer: Ng Yi Sheng Composer: Clement Yang
A biography of Georgette Chen, the pioneer Singapore artist, as she struggles to be accepted as a painter in a time of prejudice and war.

BELIEVE/CRASH AND BURN
Writer/Composer: Alex Yang
A school musical about a teenage gangster and his struggle to break free from a society that sees him as a loser.

Reno Balloon Race 2006

One of the more splendiferous things I've had the fortune to see.

The real phantoms

A few weeks ago we were at the Esplanade when we met some of the Australian crew who were here for the staging of Phantom of the Opera. Remember: tech people are not like other people: they see in the dark, they move without sound, they know how to use cable ties for tourniquets.

March texts!

This month, I've apparently taken on a predilection for Singaporean and Malaysian women's writing and an interest in public health, as well as a reduced interest in film (possibly due to having to watch Eating Air overandoverandoverandoveragain.

*POETRY*
+Terry Jaensch and Cyril Wong's "Excess Baggage and Claim"
+"John Keats: Poems selected by Andrew Motion"
Charlene Rajendran's "Mangosteen Crumble"
+Sharanya Maivannan's "Iyari"

*FICTION*
+Marquis de Sade's "The Misfortunes of Virtue and Other Early Tales"
Catherine Lim's "The Woman's Book of Superlatives"
+Shan Sa's "The Girl Who Played Go"
+Dave Chua's "Gone Case"
+Shalom Auslander's "Holocaust Tips for Kids and Smite the Heathens, Charlie Brown"

*DRAMA*
+Jocelyn Chua's "Restless and Other Plays"
+Euripides's "Alcestis, Hippolytus, Iphigeneia in Tauris"
Eugene O'Neill's "The Iceman Cometh"

*NON-FICTION*
+Bob Dylan's "Chronicles: Volume One"
Tan Khoon Kiat's "Beyond the Screen: Nurses' Reflections"
"More Than a Calling: Nursing in Singapore since 1885"
+Anthony Bourdain's "Typhoid Mary: An Urban Historical"

*GRAPHIC NOVELS*
+Bill Amend's "Encyclopedias Brown and White"

*PERFORMANCES"
Hwa Chong Junior College's "YAWP"
Action Theatre's "The Swimming Instructor"
+"The 2007 Life! Theatre Awards Presentation
+Action Theatre's "Theatre Idols", including Ovidia Yu's "Hitting (on) Women", Desmond Sim's "The People in the Mirror", Chong Tze Chien's "On Sundays the Kites Come Out to Play" and my own "The Final Temptation of Stamford Raffles"
+Sing'theatre's "No Regrets: A Tribute to Edith Piaf"
+Toy Factory's "Titoudao"
Theatreworks's "Drift Net"
+Ho Tzu Nyen and Fran Borgia's "King Lear: The Avoidance of Love"

*FILM*
Lots of Dani Spies's "Quickbites"
The Substation's "Matters Close to Home", including Li Xiuqi's "Seletar Airbase: Singapore's Secret Garden", +Liew Seng Tat and Zan Azlee's "Tudung", Mauri Pasanen's "Traces", Bran de Rijcker's "Township Jive"
+Todd Stephens's "Another Gay Movie"
+Jack Neo's "Just Follow Law"

*EXHIBITIONS*
NUS Museum's "Objects and Desire"
+Reflections: Paintings by Thomas Yeo"
+Jasson Moss's "Imitative Polyphony: I Am Only Music"
National Museum of Singapore's "Families & Friends: A Singapore Album Exhibition"
Raghu Rai's "Maestros: Masters of Indian Classical Music" and "Earthscapes"
+Sandra Lee's "The Plight of the Ever After"
+Pearl Yang's "Peace of Mind"

April: National Yi-Sheng Awareness Month

Heheheheh. Nora Samosir just called me a media whore for having so much coverage of 251. I requested to be called a Media Meretrix instead, so I too can be an MM.

But in fact, I need all the publicity I can get for April, because I have THREE (3) shows coming up for this month.

1. Georgette: a musical on the life of Georgette Chen
Musical Theatre Singapore
Esplanade concourse
8:30 on Wed 4 and Thu 5)
FREE (it's a concert performance of excerpts)

2. 251: inspired by the life of Annabel Chong
Toy Factory Theatrical Productions
Esplanade Theatre Studio
8pm from Thu 5 to Sun 15, 3pm matinees on weekends, no show Monday
$33

3. Frostbite: a 10-minute play
Short and Sweet Singapore
8pm from Wed 25 to Sat 29
Studio Theatre, Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts
... I have no idea what it'll cost. It's part of the week 2 events, as shown here.

Come watch, bee-yotch.

FUUUUUUUUCK

Half my essay for FOCAS on censorship in Singapore in the year 2006 is gone because I didn't save properly.

I need something to punch.

Yish be not proud

Feedback from bloggers on my NUS Arts Fest reading.

I went to watch the poetry recital Tempestuous Beasts at NUS UCC Foyer with Weewee and Miss Pooja Nansi rocked. The rest were too gay for my liking.
-Alexis K, http://iskcentric.wordpress.com/

in my mind, tempestatous [sic] beasts, judging from the title alone, would be a passionate angsty emotional angry sarcastic literary reading... but instead...haiz. i'm not sure how to describe it. let's just say the feelings wasn't there, lah. it was tame. ... and that guy lee-sheng just annoyed me. what's up with the cape?? a little too much. my mood couldnt take it today. http://nineflavours.blogspot.com/

Yeah, I know I should laugh it off, especially since I'd deliberately made a decision to read my less well-known pieces at the event. But it still hurts a little.

That's one of the paradoxes of my life. I believe strongly in the long-term value of good criticism, but I don't take criticism well, whether it's good (I assume it's flattery) or bad (I believe it and it depresses me).

I say this partly because tomorrow, my extremely negative review of Jocelyn Chua's "A Brief Affair With Infinity" comes out. And I'm friends with both Ruby Pan, the director, and Richard Chua, the Artistic Director of Little Red Shop. It's the maiden production of his theatre group. Whether they remain friends afterwards... time will tell.

I know that Jocelyn's going to take this hard, which is why I made sure to use the review to promote her book of earlier plays - "Restless and Other Plays", available at BooksActually, Kinokuniya and NLB. It really is very good; she consistently places her characters into desperate situations, chaos birthed of perverse hierarchical systems (governmental, sexual, familial, whatever), exploding into grotesque influorescences of violence.

Even so, I know that my lack of mercy will come back and haunt me when 251 opens next week.

Let them criticise. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger.

Apparently, I've visited 28 countries. That's 12%.

create your own visited countries map
or vertaling Duits Nederlands

Patti Smith is hot.

You see why I can't tell my parents I'll never marry a woman? (Hey, she was lovers with Robert Mapplethorpe for a while.)

Books I Have Read June 2005

I've been checking out my journal. Dream documentations, half-finished poems, desperate prayers, lists. I rather like it.

The long lists, for example, are testament to the eccentricity of my reading habits,

"Myths and Legends of Ireland"
“Njal’s Saga”
“The Rig Veda”
John Ashbery’s “Chinese Whispers”
John Bastin’s “Olivia Mariamne Raffles”
Dan Brown’s “Angels and Demons”
Tim Burton’s “The Death of Oyster Boy”
Joseph Campbell’s “The Hero with a Thousand Faces”
Nina Epton’s “The Golden Sword”
Otto Fong’s ”Sir Fong”
Joanne Harris’s “Chocolat”
Henry James’s “The Turn of the Screw”
Jonathan Kirsch's “The Harlot by the Side of the Road”
Koh Beng Liang’s “The Last Three Women”
Steven D. Levitt and Stephen J. Dubner’s “Freakonomics”
Leona Lim's “Our Sisters, Their Stories”
Audre Lorde’s “Zami: A New Spelling of My Name”
Leslie Lung’s “Freedom of Choice”
Melissa Mathison's “E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial” (screenplay)
Campbell McGrath’s “American Noise”
Roman Polanski's “Rosemary’s Baby” (screenplay)
Richard Sale’s “The Xenophobe’s Guide to the Icelanders”
Shinji Saijyo's “Iron Wok Jan”
Teh Yik Koon's ”Mak Nyahs: Malaysian Male to Female Transsexuals”
Ruth Vanita’s “Queering India”
Jules Verne’s “Journey to the Center of the Earth”
Mark Waddon’s “The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time”
James L. Watson’s “Golden Arches East: McDonald’s in East Asia”
Cyril Wong’s “Below: Absence”
Arthur Yap’s “The Space of City Trees”
Yong Shu Hoong’s “Isaac Revisited”

NOW YOU TOO CAN BE AN UBERNERD!!!

Have you ever felt like less of a person because you never memorised any transcendental numbers (e.g. Pi [3.15149] or Euler's constant [2.71828]) beyond six digits?

Well, worry no more! It turns out that there's a transcendental number we can all memorise! It's the Liouville constant, which is defined as...



Basically, it's the summation of 10^-1 factorial + 10^-2 factorial + 10^-3 factorial + etc....

So now it's easy to recite a transcendental number to the first 100 digits! Just begin with "Zero point" and remember to say "one" the first, second, 6th and 24th times and zero all the other times all the way to a hundred (if you're going for a thousand places, remember to say "one" at the 120th and 720th places too).

Have a ball! Show off to your friends! It's better than The Song That Never Ends!

(This is a belated entry for Pi day, March 14th)

This is why I want to write weird musicals.

Q: You've said that opera has always been about the gods. What exactly did you mean by that?

PETER SELLARS: Well ... human beings need permission, and usually that's metaphor, to recognize that there are many layers of reality moving at any given moment, and that every small gesture has very large consequences. So opera is this amazing form, which takes a gesture, and understands it through music, poetry, dance, visual art, all at the same time.

"The artist's work is to lift people out of their usual sense of their own cosmos into a higher vision of what's going on up there."

A whole galaxy is in place around these four actions. You thought you were just writing a letter to someone, but in fact, there was a whole symphony orchestra playing. In fact there was a chorus singing. In fact, it's like a bigger deal. Opera constantly gives you that perspective shift; that glimpse of spiritual activity inside of the simplest and quietest moments.

From here.